Being Stupid?

Argh, I feel bad and sad enough to mention it.. I just want to release it out....
Please ignore this post if you don't feel like reading it. It's MY Rant!
You can't STOP me from complaining.

What happened? All began last week.......

Firstly,
Last Saturday - for the first time in my life, my fav phone dropped into the toilet bowl. It can't be fixed...Gonna cost me a few hundreds Ringgit to buy again or repair...I learned my lesson - not to bring any important stuff to the toilet.

Secondly,
Last Sunday - I totally forgot to take the packet of marshmallows I bought for my Juniors. I left it in a restaurant. How forgetful! Wasted RM5.95. Next lesson, be alert when you go shopping, always check my stuff before I leave.

Thirdly,
Last Tuesday - I made a decision that I will not buy my bro's friend's friend lappy (laptop)... What am I thinking? The software is in Mandarin, whichI don't know how to operate in Mandarin. Moreover, the seller didn't inform us about the software. I asked my bro is it true that all Microsoft Office are 'cetak rompak'. He told me 'yes' and no one will use original because it's expensive. But I thought when you buy a new one, installed MO is original. I don't have any idea about software thingy. Often, he tries to scare/warn me not to download this and that (even Mozilla Firefox and Real Player!) , it will spoilt the lappy soon. He said one software can only use and support one IE.

I sense that he could have lied to me about this stuff. Even before, he told me not to watch movie in his own laptop but he still did the same thing every night. FINE!! Why don't he just use the 2nd hand lappy since his own laptop is not functioning atm. Mom said nowadays all new software in the lappy are in Mandarin, but I don't agree at all. If yes, why don't the whole world make Mandarin is the Official International Language? That means all lappy are 'Ah Bengs'? I just don't want to argue. What's made me mad was she said bro searches lappy sellers for me, priority is for me but I don't think he's looking a lappy for me. I think is more for himself.

Fine, I had enough of asking his help or favour. I will never ask! NEVER! PISSED OFF BRO! I know he doesn't like talking to me. I think I'm a burden, always troubling or giving him problem. I feel like he is just a so called 'kor' in the family. With or without him, I have to move on my life. Seriously, sometimes I don't know how to respect him in this family. I just don't!

Fourthly,
I accidentally drove my car and 'kena' (hit) my neighbor's wall today... How careless am I?...Need to repair and cost money again... I think I should stop touching the car for now and maybe in the future. It's not that I don't want to drive. I don't feel like driving in Malaysia. Even though, I'm not a P driver and I put the P stickers on, ended up other road drivers and even the P drivers bully me. Fyi - worst drivers can be found in Malaysia! The drivers here are known as impatient drivers (I'm proud to say I'm not one of them and not all Malaysians are like this). I can't deny the fact that majority of the Malaysian drivers are kiasu.

They horn or speed to over pass you whenever they like. They don't give signal whether to turn left or right, they just turn like no one is watching or ignoring the other drivers. How inconsiderate? They are selfish. Now, I understand why good drivers cursed on the road. Even my friends! I understand how they feel. I don't curse but I will shout in the car. Not to mention, all 'thanks to the 'duit kopi' to the 'Undang' examiners and attitude problems. They passed every idiot driver on the road without thinking the consequences (possible problems) created by these IDIOTS (NO OFFENCE to those who could pass easily without reading or understanding the law or road signs!).

How sad can this be? I don't know what's next. All I want is a permanent job which I could save some money to pay bills, support my family's expenses and holiday trip.

I just want to get out of here........