I have someone close to me since I was young, whom I call daddy/papa. But as I grow older, I don't have the feeling towards him anymore.. Someone rather, being an adult, I have more problems with him compare to the ones when I was young including these BIG WORDs - misunderstanding and intolerance..
My dad is a person who is really stubborn and do not listen to others' opinions or advices. He thinks he is always right. I give up..How could I wish that he could accept our thoughts. Even mommy said he doesn't understand us now. Just today, mom and dad quarreled again - Big Fight. And granny saw it and told me she is a burden to us. At that moment, how I WISH I DON'T EXIST IN THIS FAMILY. I couldn't help to solve their problems but I could only comfort granny and told her it's a small problem.
The one whom I respect throughout my life but suddenly I don't feel like obeying him anymore. I think he has changed to another person which he is like a total stranger to me. It's not as peaceful as last time. I don't know how to cope up with my life. Work? Belief? Life? Family? All these things seem to fate in my heart. I lost hope... even in God. The only thing I could wish for now is granny to be healed as soon as possible and mom will go through this stage.
2 comments:
Some time, this is a lonely battle. Otherwise, if you see it from different point of view, it is a journey to which God has given you.
You know, I find that most of us has been searching for material things that we let go one of the most important thing in life, Relationship.
We pursue money, success, fame, security, education etc until we forgo the people surrounding us. We shuck them aside and do not care to put in effort to rectify it.
Parents, friends and people should be doing reflection of how is their relationship from time to time. not just once in a blue moon.
Oh yes, I have been chasing after this and that. Yet, Thank God I am still in touch with the reality!
God gave us a choice to do the right thing. Your parents need to see it.
You need to brace the future and be assured that He is always there. Just that you cannot feel His presence at the moment.
Come back to Him.
Yea, thanks for the comment.
Definitely a lonely battle...
Facing not one but more than that ...
To me, material things is not what I'm looking for in my whole life, not even in my priority list...
To me, family is important.. but somehow, at this moment, too many problems at one go.....difficult to describe.. haha
But thanks tho, I will try my best.
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