JOY of the LORD is my strength!

Lately, I experienced God's wonderful grace... I found NEW peace and hope in Him again. 

*sorry to myself* a lot of time I want to express it here but I don't have time... I was too busy with so many activities around me........ :( I love to blog and share but never ending events coming up.....

I learned the meaning of JOY of my beloved Father in heaven. I released my worries, sorrows, burdens, and everything else to Him..I'm no longer chained to my old self but new beginning of my life....This is how it started......

One night, I stayed back late just to hang around in the office... I ended up attending Chinese Prayer Meeting... I was surprised why God gave me a chance. (*In my mind* I want to see someone I have ******** tho). One hour of worship, I cried like mad, I lost the sense of belonging here, I had too many things in my mind that really bothered me to move on in the work place.  I do not even share in Cg time.

BUT God never give up on me. I love to be with Him side by side. I pray every time I will cling to Him like a little girl.. I long for that........Even though, I don't really understand Chinese but God allowed me to read (with Ping Yin) and sing to Him. All glory and praises to Him. I sensed His strong presence that night. I found that He will lift me up from my troubles. He told me clearly that night, even when I reached home. Clearly enough to hear His soft voice, He said I do not need to do anything but leave everything to His care. Why do I worry so much? My life as a single lady. I know He will prepare one partner to help me in His ministry.

Almost 9 months, I felt hurt and sad since Stephenie left and so on.. I cried easily, no one knows, but Only Him. I do not have the joy in me while serving. I lost the sense of direction and just want to get it out from here. I felt God is really moving deeply and helping me to develop certain skills. I know He hears my prayers. I do not cry for nothing. I know He is there. He also sent other colleagues to help me to grow deeper in His Word and thoughts. 

I pray hard, and fast certain times to learn to have faith in my Father who has planned everything accordingly to His will. Just this Morning, His words reminded me again in Prov 3:4-6; Trust in the Lord with All your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in All your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.

I thank God every day for my life here on earth. Without you, I'm nothing at all.

All Glory to Him!

Serena