Moving on?

Thankful I can blog my feelings out, expressively..God knows I'm an emotional type of person. One year, I learned to journal my journey with him especially dealing with relationships with friends and family. I learned to cling to Him every time I faced the temptations. Father, You are still in control :) That's the truth! Even I feel disappointed in relationships especially trust issues, I can still trust in Him completely (which I'm learning now). 

I want to build a relationship of trust in my family. I know my earthly dad is over protective at times, and I can't imagine if I'd be single for my whole life. What will happen to me or my parents? Listened to sermon today by Pr Chris. He knows that he can let go his eldest son now. First thought came to my mind, was my earthly dad!!! He has yet to let me go! Ouchh!.... Just because I'm a lady, still his young girl...... >.<! I think I have to pray more for him, relationship matters between me and him. I know I love him but I can't express it out. It has been years that I do not know how I can show my love to him directly. It's hard! Because of the hurts from the past. I'm still learning from mistakes and taking my burden to Him. God's timing and not mine tho!

I do not want my parents to be worry over me. 27 years... I feel old at this age especially when I see all my friends are getting married and have kids. Not that I complain I do not have a partner but I do enjoy my life as single. Been through a lot with Him especially when I almost fall for someone that I shouldn't. It's hard!! God knows. I complained and cried a lot to Him. I know I have a long way to go. I want to wire my life to God centered. Nothing else matter besides building my relationship with Him and my family first.  

Am I capable of living my own? God is always my provider. No matter what job I'm in, I know He is the only ONE who provides me everything including my relationships with others. Can't be thankful enough? I want to be His servant. I want to give out my best!!! I'm still praying which area He wants me to go in, either Community/Children/Young Adults/Mission, or even youths?  

Right now, I'm hooked with Kari's worship songs. Always listening Kari Jobe's Stars in the Sky, reminds me of His power and love. Knowing You are still the Only Hope in my life. I'm reading the book 'Purity and Passion' by Elisabeth Elliot. Lent by a good friend. It's a super interesting book. I am amazed by how this author kept her purity with her partner before marriage. God centered life rather than own selfish desire. I can say I'm learning that too. I know God will meet all my need. Praying for the Spirits of Self-Control, Patience and Humble to be upon me. It's time to move on my life. Next year, the year for me to build my faith in Him and He will be the Center of my life.    

I might go to Cameron Highland again for silent retreat in Dec :) I just can't wait!