Journey of Trust.....

Hi to myself :)

Well, I like to express myself through words in blog and diary (physical book) about my feelings.
As I go through my walk with Him, I'm always aware that He is there with me.
Sometimes, my feelings could be wrong because I tend to trust myself rather than Him.

I admit that I'm still a sinner. Not good but bad one. I can't forgive myself at times. 
I'm feeling stupid lately because I do not know what I want to do in my life.
Even though I'm handling admin support, sometimes I do not feel I'm doing well.
Maybe I feel lack of confidence. I do pray about my gifting.
A lot of things I want to do, but I do not know where to start.
Passion? For my lost friends. I only know how to pray....

Lost the trust in myself. But I know I should turn to Him whenever I have this kind of feeling.
I know He is the One who initiates and speaks to me.

My dear Savior who loves me so much. How can I not know that everything comes from Him?
I wish I could be strong but it's something that He wants me to learn to trust Him completely.
No one can help me. Not even the ones closest to me.
I just want to live my life to the fullest for Him.
I have nothing to lose but only a life for Him.....
I'm thankful I'm alive.

Time to ponder about my life......