Time to Ruminate....

We are not a good person? Do you think so?
I am! Personally, I fall every time, being a sinner as always.
Need His grace for my repentance and forgiveness.

When you are close with God, you will  always face the challenge.
That's true... But how can I face it?

One thing, in a big church like my church, always full of events.
Every month we have different conferences and so on.
Every weekend, Christians and non-Christians will attend celebration.
I think I have come to the point I said I stop attending the celebration that keep on feeding on my head knowledge about God. Basically I don't have time to ruminate it. It's bad for my soul. That's why I need to rest. In other word, I need time to chew what I have learned.

Seriously, I need time to take a break from listening too much.
I want to give Him a time to help me to digest. 

I recall back what I had shared with my other cg members.
I thought I can stay strong but I am not.
Is ain't easy at all. I feel vulnerable if I don't focus on Jesus.
I'm always affected, especially in the same working environment.
I hate myself even more as I like him so much.
I'm tired of it. I know I have given a time for myself to overcome.

The devil is always on the move to disturb my soul first.
But, the Good News reminded me of
Psalm 23 reminds me again of Him being my Shepherd, I am His sheep.
John 10, Jesus is at the door =)

I need to restore my soul again. 
Help me Holy Spirit!