Confirmation from Him

Past few weeks, I am so negative about everything especially in work. I know, I know, I can't let go certain things, especially the comfortable lifestyle staying in the office and get my job done. I do sense God is asking me to come out from my comfort zone. It's true that I am tied with my work rather than to be involved in the ministry. I feel aimless at times. Thank God for the study I had in AOIC, encourages me to know my Savior personally. I want to be clear of my direction.  I cried, and ask God why you put me here. I struggled dealing with church members, they are so demanding at times, and they forgot that they are part of the church and we are not perfect. I have learned not to expect anything from people.

I do not dare until He told me to move out. I have so many things in my mind that I want to do, but I can't be too involved in so many things until I do not seek His direction and spending time with Him. My priority is to get closer to Him each day. I want to be frank and honest in whatever I do, no other motive or agenda that is against His purpose for me. I am afraid to move on. I am praying for confirmation at this point. 

Over few weeks ago, I prayed God will open doors for me to move out, but where? Indeed, He sent a job to me. There is an opening in GBM. Surprising enough, I never thought of joining because the workplace is quite far and I need to travel most of the time especially school holidays. He knows me even before I was born. I am people person. I'm fully satisfied if the people respond to me. I know that too. Working here, in Church, is a close door setting and yet, and it means I am not reaching to other people (non believers). 

My wonderful Abba Father redeemed my relationships with my dad and brother. I have learned to be patient and more understanding towards humans. No doubt, people can fail us but God doesn't. The thing now, when I can move on? It depends how He is going to direct me. I came to know a sister in Christ, she taught me through her experience on waiting on God. I am glad that God responded and in fact, I believe he has opened the other door as He wants me to ask from Him first. Fasting one or two meals since Lent season, made me more focus, and pray often. Apart from that, I want to glorify God in my study, life and everything else. Nothing matter to me anymore, but of course, loving family and friends is my priority too.