Last Friday, my boss told me that I couldn't take unpaid leaves for my mission trip. I was quite shocked to hear the 'No' word came from his mouth, saying that the company needs me for the upcoming events... Of course, being dumb founded and sad at the same time, I tried to hide my tears from my colleagues. I looked at the sky through window and asked God, "WHY?" After all the months waiting for this opportunity and booked air ticket. He doesn't want me to go to Cambodia? Or I'm not good enough to go? I'm waiting for this trip since last year... I just don't understand... and my ticket is not zero air fare but cost me few hundreds... Obviously, money is just a minor part but my heart really ached.
My colleague on the other hand, tried to consult me and asked me to go out to meet clients.. trying to hide my sadness and disappointing face...We decided to go out of the office... I knew I have to put this aside. I tried to forget it but still it's hard for me to accept it..the whole Fri, I felt moody....I smsed Shane and my mom. Mom said is okie, I will have chance to go there again.
Anywhere, is not that smooth sailing day after all... At first, we managed to get some orders from this new client (cafe) in Pavillion, but in the late afternoon, a call came from a colleague stating that we don't have stock for them.. Me and my colleague felt being under judged by her because the client slammed down the phone when the other colleague told him we do not have stock for that particular flavours.
Before we promise a deal or order, we had called her a few times to confirm the stock, she gave a green light to go ahead but in the end, she told us not to simply make promises. And guess what, miscommunication still happened at anytime and anywhere..I was not in a good mood, eventually I felt that she blamed us for what had happened.
Seriously, I was not in a mood to work on that day...but is a blessing from God I guess, my friend drove me around in Selayang and Kepong area, and brought me to a place for lunch and her bf gave me some of his mom's best pinapple tarts...We had New Zealand ice-cream too...I guess is good + bad day = Okay after all......At the end, I couldn't hide my tears when we arrived in the office. My bad, I should not grief or complain...
Not to forget, a good sister like Shane, her reply was "God has listened but His way is higher than you.. He might think not a right time cos you just joined the company and is not fair to the company. Don't worry there is a lot of chances for mission trips. Your company is also a mission trip God has sent to you." Didn't come across that 'working' word is also a mission trip.... God knows the best... His timing and not mine!
That's all, I know I need some time to overcome it....goodnight!
Y.H.
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