Just Live with IT!!!!

Whether I like it or not, I just need to face it... My lady boss is coming next Mon till Fri.

There will be a meeting (the whole marketing and sales team) on Wed, each of us need to do a presentation for 20 minutes.. I feel like fainting on Mon till Fri, whenever me and my colleagues heard that she is coming here. We have this fear.....Ahhh... I don't feel like seeing her now.. We are actually in a mood of CNY hahaha... Honestly, I think I'm the laziest worker in the team, I don't have the mood to work since last year, especially meeting clients, doing reports and making schedule. Don't know why, just lost the hope to work when too many bad things happened last year. Anyway, just need to face with it....

One question - A friend who is not honest with you...Whenever you ask question, he/she won't tell the truth... and the 'truth' is nothing to hide (which later I found out, not a big deal)....Will you think that he/she won't trust you... Will I consider as bestie??? I just found that even bestie also not 100% good to you. I just feel disappointed..Who else is GOOD? ONLY GOD & JESUS!

Today, Saturday as usual, went to GB, and nothing much...come back, trying to close GB account which due on next Sat!!! I don't know I have time to finish it or not... ahhhhhh : !
I feel like GB is not in my priority list now as I begin to see there is a gap between God and me...
I do feel depress and upset every now and then... I feel useless... I know I need Him back... God, please guide me to the right direction again...

Moreover, I need to start my EExcel business urgently, I just found out, I have low amount in cash every month. I need Money to survive.... especially helping my mom to buy groceries, trying to support the family...I know my mom is earning less now... I need money to buy something good (of course EE products) for my family.. I have only 1 saving in AIA, which is not enough... How can I survive for my whole life? I'm single... I need to a saving to survive on my own now...

Sometimes I wonder, do I need a partner? I don't think so, cause I'm sure I will cause a lot of problem in a relationship.. Now my focus, is earning and saving!!!! Nothing is important for me to survive in this world.

How about God? I'm trying to target both now... doing EE and sending good news to others.. It's a toughest job......Will I survive in long term?

All about surviving, what have I achieved in my life? I don't know...

This year, what's my goal.. Where am I heading to now?