It has been a while.... tired of updating... Year 2010, I'm 25 soon... quater of the century...I'm getting old. No wonder my younger friends call me 'aunty'.
CNY is coming soon... nothing special, done a bit shopping and have yet to buy any new clothes. Not really into the mood to work and CNY now...And I can't enjoy grandma's best dishes during CNY.. I miss her home cook food. I miss talking to her. She is now totally a child (baby). I wish she won't become like this. I really miss her oldself..... What can I do? Nothing...
Just thankful that I'm going to get bonus soon and increasement in salary. How much could I save? What my life going to be? I need to think for myself. My best friends don't really understand me.. only mom and God. Wonder how I could depend and survive on my own. I wish to go somewhere and be independent -something I wish long time ago but couldn't come true. I don't want to work only.... I want my life to be meaningful, leaving something meaningful for someone's life. Is like sharing God's love to everyone. I rather do this than just work for money only.
Last time I used to think about Mission and God first.. but non of these I have yet to achieve. What's more? My faith in Him is getting weak. I really wish to do something like this but I don't think it comes easily. But seriously, what I can do now?
Just work my ass off........earning enough to support myself and do something I like..
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