IN or OUT?

I have been thinking for the past few weeks whether I should just quit my job...Things are not working out in the company. One, my beloved director left us, next my colleague is throwing letter soon, and the owner is coming to Malaysia on and off just to monitor and teach us how to do sales. Sigh .. A bit disappointing of what had happened early of this year. Who said we do not know how to do sales, she really teach us step by step, we felt like we are like a small kid coming out to play.... faint*

I have lost hope in this company because the owners don't seem to understand the market in Malaysia. They thought they can take in products just like Singapore sigh. FYI Malaysia is not similar with Singapore market.... duh!!! And our pricing is way too expensive compare to others!!!! They should at least do research first.. Moreover, the owner asked me to pretend = lie to request price lists from other competitors. I felt it's not ethical.

Honestly speaking, I've been thinking what's the purpose am I here working like that... see customers every day. Sell them stuff.... and I know I have to stop grumbling about my pay.... It's real low compare to other degree holder in Sales and Marketing line.

My heart is telling me a lot of things that I don't want to do.. like this job, I don't find myself fit for this kind of job as in I can't really sell products for my whole life but my main purpose is to tell Good News. But where can I start? I'm losing faith and hope in myself. I found that I'm more worthless doing this. I know God had gave me this job. Should I be staying on or leaving?

I just want to get a break in my life and re-consider my purpose here on earth. I don't want to work my ass off without telling others about good news. I know I have to forgive and pray for every one in the company to stop all these nonsense, gossips, or whatever is it. I had enough!!!!

I just need some time to think, really THINK!!!!