Trusting Him

Hi! =)

Well, I was too busy with many activities that I neglected Him (sometimes) while working in the office...especially when you think I work in the Church, shouldn't I be more spiritual? Peoples have their own way of understanding the Church. The Church is people..not building. I make mistake because I'm not perfect. The funny thing is, we are not there waiting to be served but to serve others.

I'm inspired to hear that South Koreans are more spiritual than us. Wonder why? They love to serve other people first. I heard their churches have no maid but members who cleans and keeps the place of worship clean. WOW! How then, we, Malaysians build up this nation with the 'culture' of serving other first? 

We expect too much from the church at times. Now I understand why even Christians are not satisfied with what they have. Why? Doesn't God who provides. He is the generous Abba Father.... Again, I ponder why, when do the Church will change? Sigh... I learn to pray rather than to complain now and then. Complaining? Doesn't change a single/tiny thing of what I wanted... but trusting and praying to God, He changes me, sometimes without me knowing.

I thank God for refining me, patiently waiting for me to surrender at times. It's true sometimes I feel I want to strangle myself for being stupid and blur. Being ignorance to certain things is not good. I learned the hard way again and again, which is, I should not judge on what I do or what others do to me. I just need to care about what God thinks about me. This evil world is like a training/battle ground for me to build my faith in Him.

Again I wonder, how could I spend more time with Him? The key word is discipline. I know I'm super duper lazy most of the time. How God can change me? I always depend on myself instead of Him but now with this new beginning, I need to learn what it means to fully depend on Him. I hope if you are reading this, do pray for me that I will grow and lead my other friends to Christ. 

My priority now? to keep focusing to Him and to bring my friends back to Him. I want all my friends to know this Loving Father. I pray for opportunities for me to share!

Amen and Praise Him because He has not abandon me all these years. I'm 27 this year... Instead of thinking when can I get a bf or life partner, but that is not the main thing in my life. Looking back, I had a good laugh. I just want my whole family to know Him deeper and growing in maturity. I surrender my life to You. 

Blessings,

Serena