STOP!

Well, I don't think I want to type anything here but it's bothering my heart.. really breaks my heart to hear all the nonsense from different people. I'm tired and sick of peoples who gave me negative issues on other people. STOP IT! I don't know how long I can last.........

I just can't stop crying after hearing all these news/issues are full of lies, LIES!!!  I HATE IT! I have no one to turn tho not even the closest people in my family.. I don't think I can trust anyone in that environment anymore. I just feel like want to quit as soon as possible.

O Lord, you know my heart, you know what I think. I just can't stop pouring my heart out to you. I don't expect miracle will happen just instantly but at least Lord, please keep me out of this. I just want to STOP thinking about it. It's bothering me more and more. I know that You told me to let go and handle all the issues. But it keeps coming back. Seriously, I'm feeling down at this point. More worse to hear my prayer partner is planning on her move........... I'm helpless. Please Lord, intervene her heart and decision right now. I'm bad at acting in front of her, after all the things I have heard. Holy Spirit, point to me directly what I should do and not to do when I face anyone tomorrow. You allowed it to happen, I do not know why but Lord, please pull me out. How strong of my faith in you now? I feel like losing You now........ my heart is so unsettle and trouble now. I do not know how I can face it anymore...I'm a very weak person. I lost my sense of purpose of following your great commission in that place now...........Looking back, why do You put me in that place at the first place. I do not know why, really have no idea now.