Hello to Myself!

Hi :) Basically to myself.. SPEAKING TO MYSELF!

I found myself drifting farther away from my current relationship with Him. I know what are you thinking right now. Every time I felt apart from Him, I would express myself in this blog. True enough... I always label these posts as myself or/and belief category.... It's also a way of expressing........

Oops, should I be saying that I should stop complaining too much in my life. NO! I should let it out to myself and to Him of course (in prayer).

Due to the current working hours and extra OT in the office, I do not know how can I last in terms of spiritual and physical...God knows, it's a big church with too many activities.... AAHHHH!!! I really need a break from all these... WHEN???

Looking at the situation now, my prayer partner already left me. I'm working in an environment which is super hectic... Isn't it good to go back to the working world. I'd not even have to bother what other people think. I guess He has a way to train my faith in Him. MY HUMILITY AND PATIENCE ..It's not about the money I made my choice joining this type of work. I have to even cut down on my spending power. 

I have no admin skill to be honest and I hate it. But what made me joined in the first place, is a place where I can grow and learn about a church, more of the people. I don't learn from a book but from the experiences I will gain for my future.

I know I have other brothers and sisters in Christ who care about me very much. All I want to remind myself is to stop all the nonsense to think too much, because I really want to grow my relationship with Him. God is doing something in my life, I must be disciplined to remind myself I need to put away negative thoughts. I really do!

I had two times 250ml plus of milk tea earlier, taking too much caffeine will definitely kill my health. Even though, I thought I could last longer in the office (stay back to do some stuff) but my heart was pumping like mad as I drove back home this evening. Felt dizzy at the same time too. I do not die leaving my own legacy, especially sharing gospel and love to my friends and family.

To be honest, since my good partner left, it really bothered me to think about the people around me and my work issues. Trust issue again. Crying out to myself, at least I could express it out here. 

Just yesterday, I read on the spot from the book "The Power of Praying Woman". A topic of asking the Lord to strengthen me to stand against the foes. There are five areas Stormie mentioned. Especially fasting and prayer... I need to do it again for Him and myself.

1. Word

2. Praise

3. Obedience

4. Faith

5. Prayer & Fasting

Proverbs 10:25; "When the whirlwind passes by, the wicked is no more, but the righteous has an everlasting foundation." 

I guess He won't let me go yet because I chose to hang on to Him, for He has not forsaken me, giving me the Holy Spirit to counsel and teach me every time I did something not right.