Keep on Praying & Hoping

I finally found the answer after so many years! 

I thank God that He is revealing me day to day, more of relationship matters... I began to understand the purpose why he didn't give me what I long for. If I had received it earlier, it will turn out to be an ugly relationship now. 

God's timing is perfect. I have good friends telling me that I need to break down the barriers especially communication with others. I set myself in high defense mode because I am afraid people will judge me on my weaknesses. Low self-confidence in me, eats me up to the max. That's why I can't trust and believe people but myself. I have doubts even I said my prayer to Him. A sense of guilt over me when I know I need to drop all these negative self-thoughts.  

Relationships matter most to Him. Without a good foundation of love relationships with people around me especially with dad and bro... I don't think I can fully depend on God or even trust Him completely. It's a process of healing. I know it will take time... 

I will keep on waiting for Him, hoping and praying like crazy :) Of course, my love for God cannot compare to others. I shall remain faithful to Him. I learned to appreciate friends around me, and began to trust guys. God wants me to appreciate the beauty of His creation.

I learned from mistakes and now, I know God will bring me through.... as much as He wants me to trust and have faith in Him completely. 

Praise Him for He never forsake or give up on me!

Serena~