Psalm 27: 1 + 14

Psalm 27:1
The Lord is my light and my salvation - whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life - of whom shall I be afraid?

Psalm 27:14
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. 

Just came back from Chinese Prayer Meeting in my church. It has been a while I didn't attend their meeting. The difference between Chinese and English meeting is the time spend to have conversation with God individually. I found it more deep in Spirit in Chinese Prayer Meeting, as I can kneel down and pray.... But whichever language prayer meeting, I will still praise Him. Thank God for these two verses that reminded me to wait upon Him and nothing I shall fear/afraid as the Lord is my stronghold/salvation/light! 

I know my Spirit spoken to me tonight. Not to even doubt or think too much. I should concentrate in praying for people around me. I know that He has given me a good friend, that I should be praying for. Previously, I put my whole feelings into this relationship and I feel not at peace most of the time because I..... 

Expect too much and yearning for something from that person which made me super frustrated. Somehow God revealed to me that I should be praying rather than playing the guessing game. I confessed and asked Him to lead me again. I do not want to be on my own. I need to move on! Finally, I get the meaning of this relationship. Nothing I can do more/less to earn His love as He loves me so much from the beginning. He reminded me that He will meet all my need. I learn to believe Him and trust that He will provide everything I need in this life. 

I need to ask His help to patch my relationship with my parents and bro before I can even know how to love God with all my heart. I know sometime when I pray, I still doubt about God because I don't trust. Same goes with other men I know, I don't trust them easily. I'm learning to accept and love myself. I want to move on. This year end, I thank God for such a great lesson in my life. I want to be a better self to glorify Him.  

Praise and thank to Him, for He is there with me. I do not need to be afraid or fear of people but Him. 

I will be strong and take heart to wait for Him to direct my path again. 

I won't give up easily as You have given me this precious life. 

Thankful and grateful in my life,
Serena