Wait & Trust Him to Guard My Heart~

Father :)

I thank You for giving me a chance to live and explore my life purposes for you. I know I was made for You. Over one year period in DC, I discovered that I need to 'empty' myself all the time. I appreciate good colleagues around me. I learned to have quiet and silent moment with You especially during working time. You taught me great things as an admin besides being responsible. I have to be humble, kind, loving, patience and be filled by the HS all the time. In fact, I do keep a diary of my life, to share my stories with You. 

One thing, I'm learning to build a good relationship with You and my earthly dad and bro. I found it more challenging for the next year. I want to mend this relationship and make it work in the future. If not, I'm still skeptical trusting men in my life. I believe You had prepared me a good husband =) 

I don't know whether I should be going to the States (my wish).  Even that day, You allowed Stephy to ask me about my study to the USA. I think I have to drop my wish at the moment. To re-think, re-plan, and wait upon Your call before I move on. I do not want to end up doing the wrong things for You. Lord, You are gracious to show me the right way. Hebrews 4:16, You reminded me to approach You in confidence for help in time of my need. 

Right now, I need to wait patiently for Your calling and direction in my life. As for CES, I really want to join but not sure when is the right time. I'm trying my best to learn and do whatever I can to glorify You as a GZA. I also thought of youth or campus people (whom I can help to minister and mentor them),or joining young adults activities, or even wanting to start own cg. I'm not confused. But I really do not know where I am heading to at this point of time. 

After the accident, I was more puzzled about my relationship with my parents. I know I need to settle it right by next year before I move.... Lord, direct me to where You want me to be...

This season is waiting and trusting You, to guard my heart to become more holy.

Praising You always,

Serena