Be Filled by God!

Those who have read my previous post might think that I'm still dealing with this issue.

Or whatever you might call it. At first, I said it is a gift, but I don't think so for now. 

But I do think it is an advantage/opportunity to use all that I have for Him now.

I'm still struggling with this at the moment. I admit that I hate to do things alone. 

It's better for me to join a friend or anyone whenever I want to do an activity.

Some friends said I should not lose hope, keep trusting Him that He will provide.

I know a handful of people have been praying for me. *thankful* 

My parents worried about me all the time.

I don't want them to worry about me at all. 

The pressure around me was great! 

I have hard time to deal with this 'issue'.

It is not a problem at first until early last year I felt left out. 

Some of my closest friends are in relationships now.

 

Maybe last year and this year are the most challenging years for me to depend on Him 100%. 

I have problem trusting God? Yes, even with my bro and dad.

My bro has been treating me very good lately, I feel kinda 'weird'

I have an all-time worrying daddy. 

How can I assure him that I can be independent?

Be thankful to have them? Like a friend said, "Take it or leave it?"
The fact, they are still my blood related family members.
I'm learning to accept them.

In two days time, I will be attending a seminar in Elijah House. 

Pray this year, I will be growing to know Him deeper.

Talking about this, how can I overcome it?

Been thinking and reading a lot lately.. 

It's my usual visit to Boundless, Today's Christian Woman, etc websites. where you can google for it. (learning from other people's experience). They all say the same thing - waiting on Him.

Talking with some ladies either single or married. Been listening to their testimonies. 

I even asked a friend whom I thought she is single till now. But the fact, she was divorced. She still can praise and find hope in God alone. How self-centered am I? I found out I'm too into this problem on my own.

So what I can tell you? Either you are single or married, God is the ONLY fulfillment you have in your life. Not even a partner can satisfy your needs or whatsoever!

I'm also reading a book called 'Lady in Waiting' by Jackie & Debby. It really helps. I'm in the chapter learning to be a 'Lady of Contentment'. =) Get the book if you can!

I'm also in the midst of learning to have faith in trusting my Abba Father, for every situation He has put me in (following a book called 'Experiencing God'). I'm in Unit 7 - Heb 11:6

I know the Holy Spirit can fill me with spiritual truth. I always think that I'm accepted by Him whenever I have 'weird' thoughts about myself. I'm beautiful in His eyes. 

Reminder from Our Daily Bread from RBC -  

Nothing can fill the emptiness in your heart except God. 

My spiritual weapon for now? 

I'm disciplining myself to be filled by Him every Morn before I start my day. 

Waking up early is hard because I'm not a Morning person, but I want to enjoy His presence, to fill my empty cup.  

A sense of peace, joy, hope and satisfaction that I can't explain. 
Finally, I know how to surrender myself to Him fully.  

A Creator whom loved me from the very beginning. 

I hold on to His promises, to grow deeply in love with Him.

Praise Him for choosing me to be His princess :) *grateful*