Time for Every Blessing!

As long as I'm running this race on earth, I'm thankful to God for His blessings upon my life. 

I'm not perfect but God who works in my life, made me more like Him (in His image). What am I trying to say is, God is my ALL. Yes, over this one year and more, I have learned a lot!

I won't say that I don't have 'wants' but He already know my 'needs' before I ask. Difference? Want vs Need, want is more more about myself, whereas need is what I really need in life. No doubt, He already blessed me with my wants sometimes. He is a good Father.

What else can I say? God is my best provider in life.

Even the latest oversea trip to South Korea, it was a total blessing from Him. 

I was tested by Him in giving, first in a church in Bupyeong (my friend's church), second was in Yoido Full Gospel. I hesitated in giving at first but I managed to pull through the test. God is generous, He blessed me with a good shopping trip, good company of Korean friends with foc foods and gifts and I even have left over some cash after the trip! =) I hope He tells me well done!

God is taking care of my need. I feel the challenge in Faith. Another thing, is my friendship over two sisters in Christ. I know I made mistake for not trusting them much. I had overlooked their feelings during this trip. I'm confessed I cared too much over little thing. Thankful God gave me the braveness to say sorry to them. Overall, I know He is teaching me to be patience and trust Him in every possible situation. I learned to accept people of different characters.

He reminded me of a picture in Prayer Mountain. The picture of Jesus walking on the water, reminded again of a prophesy by a sis who told me to have faith not just obeying...... It works both ways.

Another prophesy in MCPP2 (just recently) given by the same sister, told me that I am the fragrance. One week later, I read an article about the American pastor taken into prison in Iran. Said in the letter that He is the fragrant of Christ! How inspired that He used that article to speak to me. Even I know this time I can stand firm because Jesus is my pillar of hope and strength. I'm learning to depend on Him as a single. I know it's hard for me to face this world especially being lonely, but I believe He is training me to trust in Him all time. She also prophesied that God will give me the desire of my heart. I will cling to that till now. The first and second prophesies are almost the same, but I know I have grown a bit mature since the first prophesy. 

To be honest, I'm struggling hard dealing with my loneliness. Yes, I felt it, probably my weakest point in my life. I hope I have the courage to face my singleness as a gift every day. I began to see my parents and my bro will have their own time. But as for me, I felt left out. Most of the time, I asked God to reveal Himself and not to let me feel alone. Sometime He answers and sometime, no answer at all. I know God already planned earlier for me to go through my single life. 

Feelings come and go, I still have feeling for him. I wonder why I can't just let go. No matter how many times I share with people, even asking them to pray for me. I can't avoid my feelings toward him. God allowed this friendship but what is He trying to tell/even teach me. I know only fulfillment and satisfaction come from God. God is teaching me something.  I know during this time He wants me to walk closer to Him. I'm still in the midst of finding out.     

I'm keeping this journal to be my reminder from time to time, this blog is to Praise my beloved Father in Heaven even bad times. I do have a heart for lost soul but also to the community work in Malaysia. Sometime I wonder the specific gifting in me for which area. I'm lost but I will still cling to God daily. I know He will listen and help me in time of trouble.

That's all for now. I'm blessed again!

PTL!

Serena