Surrender All

Been thinking a lot, fighting my emotion lately.

I know I can call on God.
It's not easy to surrender all.
I still hold on to it.
Don't know how to let go.
No choice but gonna let it go.
Have not been praying and reading much. 

Been feeling tired and sick easily.
Its definitely a sign of not enough rest.

I pray I will continue to walk this journey without doubt and fear.
Yes, I'm afraid of my future. Always remember my Hope is in Him.
Only He listens and understands.
Trust and surrendering every thought to Him.
I scare of my life.
I scare of being lonely.
Because I do not know where I'm going to now.
Patience is what I need now.  

I need to climb back to Him. To experience a deep relationship.. deeply in love with Him.
I'm lost again....