Moving On...

I praise God for everything, a constant reminder for all the blessings He gave me. 

I know it's a painful journey especially walking with Him in this relationship. 

I believe that's the reason why I met different singles, to learn from them that He will provide. 

I cried, felt broken and afraid of being lonely, in the midst of this situation, He is there, pursuing me. 

I can't recognize Him if I deeply engrossed about my loneliness and put 'him' in my heart.

Yes, I complained, grumbled about the chances and arrangement He gave me, to meet 'him'. 

I wish this won't happen at all, it's too painful but I believe He has a purpose.

Unrequited love is sooo freaking hard to bear. 

My heart is so fragile to face 'him' and bear this feeling. 

I don't want to be selfish, learning to let go, and move on. 

But it's still keep coming back, the feeling of loneliness, whether or not, 'he' can't fill the emptiness in my heart.

I long to be loved by Him, I long to know Him deeper, not else matter in this world. 

God knows my heart, teach me to be able to move on and focus on You. 

I can't deny the fact that I am scare about my future as a single.

Wonder why I am not wired to be single? 

I doubt a lot but recently, I should learn to have faith in Him that God will bring me through. 

I have to move on to a new place, environment and life.
Seem like running away? But I believe He gave me a way out rather than suffer emotionally. 

A walk of faith towards His calling, and fulfilling His purpose, giving all the glory back to Him. 

Ponder about life, ponder about Him. 

Focus on Him made me not to think about 'him'

The fact, I pray to God, He will lead me to a right partner, which I could recognize 'him' straight away....

Thank you Lord for giving me this painful lesson about depending on Him.... I'm still learning to overcome this...