It Is TIME

Over few months, I have desire to know who is this ABBA FATHER.
Decided to move on, especially commit myself to know Him better.
I have never regret taking up a course AOIC.
Little did I know, I found out myself, an unworthy creature to receive this gift.
Grace from GOD, a very REAL present in life on earth, JESUS who loved me from the very beginning before God laid his foundation on earth.
I know myself much better, the purpose and meaning to live in this world for Him, only for Him.
I learned that His timing is always right.
I'm still like a child learning to overcome every faith-challenging test.
I do not know my future now, but I began to trust every tiny bit of puzzle in life.
I want to run a good race in sharing His love to others.
I thank God for giving me choice to decide what I want to do.
He is the One behinds everything, orchestrated everything to fall into place.
He never push me but let me make a right decision, even it is a wrong one, He will lead me back to the right path.
How wonderful to have such a real and personal God in my life, isn't it?

I know I have depended too much on my own feelings especially not letting go.
I know He sent people to talk to me, even verses on peace and faith.
It's when I let my feeling to flow and let God to intervene my feeling, I found hope and trust in Him.
It's time to let the person know how I feel, it doesn't matter what kind of answer.
I have decided after much encouragement from my sisters in Christ.
It's over one year, how can that be? Because I can't let me feeling flow.
I locked it until I can't stand anymore.

He will turn my weaknesses to strengths - my emotion as a woman.
I shall trust God has His timing.....I want to move on, overcoming such feeling.
No more burden for me to carry on, a burden which made me feel so frustrated to be myself.
I know I'm not myself anymore.
My only purpose in life, is to glorify Him and do His work while I'm still alive.
It's time to tell, move forward, and trust God in His everlasting care and love.
I have faith God will bring me a right person in His time, to continue to do His work.

I shall not fear for He did not give me the spirit of fear. Amen.